Post by Ashmist on Nov 20, 2011 2:33:13 GMT -6
One shy las, One silent las, In real I never talk, In real im a joke. I know I am and im ok with it. I believe i have on purpose in this world and that is to help threw love and help threw Depression. I have done that with many. Many go off to protect and live a better life
But there is a shooting pain that goes threw my body, I sit and write this story tears fall from my eyes as I watch one go, He is 17 years old and protects his 14 year old brother. For their parents died in a carwreck.
This lad came to me in a depressed mood, and i cheered him up gave him advice but now he dosen't need me anymore and I sit here crying, for this one lad, he understood me and now he is leaving..I had fallen for him, now my heart aches
He said that he has fallen for me, but for some reason my heart dosen't believe him. He is leaving and i am lost. I feel as if I am lost soul, its been a horrid week
My teachers they all yell at me, my brother of whom i love is moving back to Nevada, my uncle i hardly see and with my grandma being dead, I fade away. I seem to only sink into a shyness that can not be broken. I seem to be the one who is gonna end up silent who never talks computer or no computer.
I fade away. I feel I am a shadow that no one ever knew, I am myself depressed but me myself..I feel no one can help, my purpose in this world is to help make many happy but I my self only grow sadder each day of each minute
I feel my life is soon to be living hell, as I cause pain everyday I cause Drama and in my heart I know there is this girl that everyone would love. But she fears coming out seeing burning hot tears well from my eyes every day, and I write this story, In Hope to find someone that fells the same pain as me..
