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Post by Hawkfeather on Jan 31, 2013 19:46:39 GMT -6
Hawkfeather seemed to be fading, if that was even possible. Just like those cats in CloudClan, when they were forgotten, they faded away. He wasn't exactly a spirit, but he was pretty sure that it was safe to say that he had been quite forgotten.
Wearily stumbling into the familiar warriors' den, the last thing he was doing was watching for anyone. And that would be why he felt himself ramming into another cat. Startled, Hawkfeather fell back, but quickly regained his posture. Now ...
Cinderstorm? |
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Post by Cinderstorm on Feb 3, 2013 0:14:50 GMT -6
(Just saw this)
Cinderstorm felt like all her friends could care less about her. Like all she was was air to them. Just some cat passing by. She sighed, all well. That's life she supposed. There had to be someone that remembered her right? Like Oakfall or Lizardleap? She was sure they remembered her. Lizardleap not in the best way. She hadn't wanted to break his heart. He was just away for so long. And she didn't know he was coming back. She didn't want to hurt him. Because she knew how it felt.
Cinderstorm padded into the den, just in time to hear her name being called. By one of her past lovers Hawkfeather. Who instead went with someone else instead of her. Just like all of them. She padded over to the other warrior.
"Yes?" She asked.
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Post by Hawkfeather on Feb 3, 2013 0:23:31 GMT -6
Hawkfeather was actually making an effort not to glare at her. Sure, he hadn't seen Lizardleap in a long time, but he still had a friendly protective feeling over him. Which just made it all the worse when he had learned of the fact that Cinderstorm had apparently left him for some tom named Oakfall.
Okay, maybe not all the facts were entirely true, but the basic fact was that Lizardleap had been replaced by Oakfall. Whoever the heck he was. And with that, Hawkfeather was angry. He remembered an argument that he'd had with Cinderstorm some while ago, telling her how he didn't want her with Lizardleap.
She'd said that she hadn't wanted to break his heart ... And now she had. Didn't that just make her a wonderful cat?
Hawkfeather continued staring at her, somehow hoping that she'd figure out why he'd called her. |
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Post by Cinderstorm on Feb 3, 2013 0:34:00 GMT -6
She sighed, staring at her paws. She had to break someone's heart. Unless the whole clan wanted her to be a two timer. She deserved to be alone didn't She? She deserved to never find love. She stared at her paws. Remembering the day she had broken Lizardleap' s heart. Now to make her feel even worse, here was Hawkfeather. Didn't he see she was already hurt. She didn't want to hurt him, but either way someone was getting hurt. Did he want her to be with someone she didn't want to be with for the rest of her life?
She finally dared to look back up at him. "I know why you want me. But remember in the first place you didn't want us together. And I had to break somebody's heart. I didn't want to be with someone who I thought more as a friend,not a crush anymore. I know I deserve to be alone for the rest of my life. And I know your just hear to yell at me....." She said closing her eyes.
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Post by Hawkfeather on Feb 3, 2013 0:47:22 GMT -6
And that someone was Lizardleap. Not Oakfall. He felt absolutely no pity at all for this cat, no love, maybe not even as a friend. They'd had a fragile relationship since the day that he had chosen Greenswallow, and it hadn't gotten better since.
If anything, it had gotten worse, especially when Lizardleap had gotten involved. Yes, I didn't want you two to be together in the first place. But does that give you the right to go and make off with some other guy, just because you didn't think he was coming back? Did you even think about what you would do, when you went off with Oakfall, if Lizardleap did come back? If Greenswallow had disappeared, I would've waited for her for moons. Heck, seasons. And with what I know, Lizardleap wasn't even gone for the whole of leafbare.
Yes, I am here to 'yell' at you. Maybe I do think you deserve to be alone for the rest of your life. But the main thing, the only thing I can think about right now, is Lizardleap. About how strongly you defended your relationship with him, and how in the end, you were the one to break it off.
He forced himself to stop before his voice cracked, with what, he didn't know. But he continued staring at that silver tabby, the one that he had once loved. |
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Post by Cinderstorm on Feb 3, 2013 1:04:27 GMT -6
She turned her head from him. He had left before Leafbare had even started. And not like they where mates. She had always had a crush on Oakfall. But she didn't say anything about it, becauseshe had been loyal to Lizardleap. But when he left, she waited for awhile around a season. Than finally, Oakfall confessed his love for her. And she did the same, that was the story all of it.
"Look, if you can't see that i'm not hurting to about it than your blind. How do you think i felt when you broke it off with me? Or when Horsewhisker broke it off with me? Or Thunderpaw? Or Shadowfall? Huh? I didn't feel so good than either! But they had to choose someone. And that someone just wasn't me ok? I hurt to when i had to do it, because i wished i could have them both. but over time, i started to see him as a friend more than a crush! Yes, i broke it off because i didn't want him to spend the rest of his life with someone who only thought of him as a friend ok?!" She said staring into his eyes, with fury.
"I don't need to hear this from you, that i have already heard from him and myself. So will you just leave me alone. The way you did before!"
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Post by Hawkfeather on Feb 3, 2013 1:16:50 GMT -6
She could've done a bit better with the wording on the first sentence. Gee, I don't know, the same way that Lizardleap does now? He retorted, feeling angrier than ever.
Then you could've at least had the decency to wait until he came back, to tell him that he wasn't the one for you! But instead, no, you took him for dead, and took being with Oakfall for granted. You didn't think about what it would feel like for Lizardleap, to come back, expecting a warm welcome from his love, only to be told that he's been replaced by someone he doesn't know!
No, I will not leave you alone until I have given you a piece of my mind! The way I did before? From what I saw, you were perfectly fine when I did that. Around a moon later, you had already found Lizardleap. And now, you've moved on again. I think you'll do just fine, with everyone leaving you. You've survived a lot so far.
He was standing up now, drawing himself to his full height. If it was even possible, he'd grown even more. He had always been a big cat. To most of the others, he was at a rather intimidating height. Anger didn't make it any better. |
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Post by Cinderstorm on Feb 3, 2013 1:23:39 GMT -6
Fine? She had been anything but fine! She had thought Hawkfeather was the love of her life! But no he left. She had cried every night! Just cause she didn't show her feelings to him, didn't mean she was FINE. "If you didn't remember Lizardleap confessed his love for ME before i confessed my love for HIM! I never really did, i told him i had to think about it. It was never a real thing!" She told him. Feeling rage, he didn't know all the details. "I was never fine! I cried and cried, just because one of my friends confessed his love for me. Doesn't mean that i fell for him right away ok! He loved me first!" She said her eyes tearing up.
Hawkfeather never understood her. At least she dodged a bullet there. HE overreacted to everything, and never listened to her side of the story. Did he ever think of how she felt that day. Just because she hid her feelings from the rest of the world?
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Post by Hawkfeather on Feb 3, 2013 1:31:11 GMT -6
And you let him believe that you returned his feelings. That you actually loved him. That you weren't just using him as a way to feel better. His eyes were narrowed to slits. Hid her feelings from the rest of the world? Ever heard of letting out your feelings? It helps, you know.
Hawkfeather had managed to sit back down. This was just a wonderful situation. Cinderstorm and Hawkfeather yelling at each other, arguing about Lizardleap, when really, it sounded more like they were talking about them again. It really wasn't helping with the memories. All these words shouted, they brought more memory of his apprenticeship, with Greenswallow, Cinderstorm, and Moonpaw.
He hadn't chosen to like all three of them. He really hadn't been thinking about love at all the night that he had met Cinderstorm. He winced slightly, barely noticeable, as he recalled their conversation. Equals. They hardly thought of each other that way anymore. |
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Post by Cinderstorm on Feb 3, 2013 23:09:43 GMT -6
She didn't want to think about that night. It brought pain, hardship, and crying back to her life. She didn't want anymore of that. She didn't even want to be here right now. No matter how tired she might be, and just want to lay down. She could sleep outside if she had to. IT would be better than being yelled at all night. So that was her decision. To leave, he said she had to stay so he could speak her mind. She didn't have to stay. And in her mind, he had spoke his mind.
"I don't want to hear anymore, what use do you think it is yelling at me? Hmm? I'm just going to leave! I don't need to hear this from you that i have already heard. But just remember this is no different than you!" She told him stalking out of the den.
He wondered why she never showed her feelings to him? He would react like this. It would be no different. In some ways she wished that love would just leave her alone.
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