still there

[Crowwing]

I wanted to write this back in mid 2014, but never really knew how to write this, but managed to find some free five minutes or so to whip this up.<3

I'm nineteen, and I am still ugh. I mean, I like males. Up until 2013, I thought I was only interested in males, making me believe I am straight. There was this one girl who caught my attention, and I would have to say that I really wanted to get to know her, more than just friends if you'd catch my drift. It was such an awkward feeling for me since prior I would just fangirl over teenage male celebrities. Totally natural. But that female was the first time I actually felt something towards someone who is not just some teen pop sensation.

I never had the talk about the birds and bees from my mom yet, so I'm wondering when she'd lecture me. Like seriously. |: I never had a relationship before, other than the occasional one week online dating long distance situation that never really works out, but do they really count?

I'm not attracted to people sexually, I just need their attention and know that they're there for me. So yeaahhh. Long story short, I like males, but there was this one female who got me questioning, but I'm not sexually attracted to anyone. Or that's what I tell myself.