Regret... [P]

[Lagoon]

Killer Ash

Lagoon stayed alone in the rain.. It was cold.. She felt broken..


She lay in the flowers of Amaryllis pack territory. It wasn't not lay as cold and damp.. She sighed, longing for Killer and Ash.. Why couldn't life be fair..? Why couldn't she have both her lovers? She thought over her words, pain was swelling inside her, she wanted this pain to be released.. She wanted love..

A cold gust of wind whipped at her fur, sending a cold shudder to run through her body. She felt as her soul had just left with the wind, there.. Right there and right then... For a second she wish it had, maybe with death comes happiness.. Maybe..

A sweet, familiar sent filled her. Who was it, Ash or Killer? She couldn't tell anymore. Besides they where brothers.. "Which one..?" She whimpered.  She lay her head down on the floor and bit her tongue. She sighed, the pain helped. She felt the blood trickle from her tongue and into her mouth. Pain was making her salivate. She turned, staring at what could be her worst nightmare.. It was one of the, she didn't see properly. Just the grey/black pelt they shared. She whimpered again, this time doing what Rueff did. She wasn't sure why she was doing this but she did. She sunk her claws deep inside her muzzle and forehead. She felt the war, heavy liquid flow down her face and into her eyes blocking her vision. It stained her white fur and made her seem slightly evil. But she was at peace.. Her life could be slipping away soon if she kept this up.. It would be worth it, just for some peace...


She heard a shocked gasp. She was dizzy now, she had dug much deeper then she had planned. In fact she still had her claws stuck in her face. She could be dreaming, she hoped. She was becoming someone she wasn't.. When did she start hurting herself..? But she wanted to be at peace, death now seemed the only way..

She heard another gasp, she growled in frustration. They didn't have to watch what was going on.. "What?" She growled, blood had now made it's way into her mouth so she could only gurgle her words. "You don't have to be here.. Which worthless follower is this..?" She asked, clearly pained to hear the answer. Killer would freak out and show her that there was no point in this, and Ash would stand by listing out the reasons she shouldn't die.  "I'm not well, I'm so unstable.. Don't give me a pep talk.. I do t need one.." She hissed through blood and.ivories. "I want to die.." Was all she said before Waiting for a response.    

She again brought her claws into her flesh, her neck now.  Blood dripped from it. She sighed, sprawling herself across the blood stained grass so her belly showed. She let the rain patter softly on her blood red tainted fur. She would now wait.. Maybe death would meet her..

[Sorry, long post 512 words o.o]

[Killer]

he walked stiffly thought the chilling night as he did rain hit his blackish pelt and slicked it down, you now could see all of his mussles as he moved he had worked day after day hoping to once again take his loved one back..... as he entered the pack clearing of flowers he blinked and with a flash of lightning was shocked he let out a gasp....... He then was a little hurt as she bitterly spat the words whitch worthless follower is this he crindged at the sight of blood on her beatiful pelt. he could not bear it he drew closer to her and listend to her hiss out the words he shook his head "Lagoon, please stop I can't bear to loose you even if you are with Ash life would be meaning less with out you" he whispered with a sullen voice it was tight in his throat.


he growled "If you die It wount help anyone, he then spat It you kill your self I will do so as well and thought (Is this what you want" he then with pain in his voice howled "NO" he lundged to her side and attemped to pin her so she could no longer hurt her self he did it with gentleness but he did stay firm nothing would stop him from helping her then his nose twiched and dread filled him as he scented two things (Ash, Blood) he then murmered to her "Please no more of this" and adds with his husky smooth voice "I can't loose you" he new it was true as soon as it left his mouth he would kill him self in the most brutal way possilbe if he lost her..... he had lost every thing He had nothing left to live for but Her she was his light in all of his darkness, she did not judge him for his bloody past.... she even was with him when sick and injured but Now.......... She belonged to another Male.... "ASH!" he spat with a force of snarl and hatered filled him he licked her on her now red muzzled and murmerd "I have always loved you" he then stood and snaped her huge head around all of her anger was about to unleash on his cunning brother he took a deep breath and finaly bared his large fangs at the smaller male he snarled with a furosty that could parilaze any wolf in his path.

He stalked fowrad until they were less than a fox leangh away he then snapped at the air to show this was not practice if he got his paws on ash he would kill him.... He meant it he had made up his mind and nothing would change it But Lagoon..... if she wanted ash then killer would leave with nothing left and surly die but if it made her happy he would not argue just simply lick he soft muzzle for his last time... but she had not said anything to this point he then lashed his tail his mussled rippled to his movement as he hissed "You have brought this to your self Ash" he spat the words bitterly and snapped the air again barley missing his brothers muzzle with the slippery ground and soaked pelt he lifted his head to the sky and let out if possibly last battle Cry....... with the flash of lightning anyone could see how he got his name its true he was a Killer..........



(this is to good and 593 words)

[Lagoon]

Lagoon watched as her beloved.. One of her beloved pounced at her, pinning her to the ground. She didn't know if he was attacking or stopping.. She saw everything as a blur. She was coughing blood into the blue and white flowers that matched her pelt, staining them red. She lapped at her paw, now smothered in blood. She watched as the dark figure went for her muzzle, she growled at the 'attack'. They didn't do much, just left her muzzle wet.

She watched as they jumped off of her and threw their head back, and howled a battle cry. Was this figure getting it's group..? She was so unsure, her world was spinning and her head pounded. She curled her bloody muzzle into her tail, staining it scarlet. She felt pain easing it's way in. She didn't like this, this isn't what she wanted. She wanted love.. Not pain.. She was wrong..

She opened her mouth to speak, but a gurgle of blood came, foaming from her mouth. She couldn't have hurt herself that bad.. How was she capable of that?.. She whimpered, dragging herself across the multi colored blur. She dragged herself towards what she thought was a cave. She led herself into it, having sharp needles dig into her skin and snag at her fur. The thorn bush was mistaken by a cave.. Now she was stuck, with her every move she felt the sting of the thorns.

Her vision wasn't clear and she was mentally unstable. She smelt the familiar sent of her lover, Ash. He was near. She let out a pained howl, signaling anyone near that she was injured. She saw the black blur dart towards her. She whimpered, they would attack - she was sure of it... She let her head fall to her paws, she was as a pup. She acted obedient. She was afraid. She wished Killer was here.. He was truly her love, Ash must have just been there in her desperation to find love. She sighed. "Killer where are you..?" Her voice was soft and pitiful. She had lost all sanity then and there. She saw the dark figure come closer, she winced away and took off into the thorns.

More pain was inflicted, she had tripped over a snake.. No a log.. A root? She was so unsure, but she tripped over it. She felt the sharpest pain in her front leg. she stumbled over it, the bone aced.

She was now searching for Killer, he had to be around somewhere.. She had to apologize, she missed him.. She wanted him.. She ran franticly, limping on the wounded leg and howling. "Killer..? Where are you..?!" She was pathetic.. She dropped to the ground, soaking the liquid, soil under her with red, thick liquid. She scented water and waded her way in.

She turned her head and saw a black figure following her blood prints. She whimpered and dove into the water, having red bubble up. She was terrified as a pup and as weak as one too. "Killer.." She gurgled, still trying to find her love. "Help me.." She cried. Her paw wasn't working properly, she would die! Everything she wanted and loved would fade before her, she was wrong! She didn't want death.. She didn't.. She wanted Killer.. She wanted love..

She struggled against the current, she couldn't think properly.. Was she already dead?! For all she knew she was in an ocean. She could be dreaming.. Please let this be a dream. She shrieked, still swatting the water.

She made it to the surface and onto dry land. She whimpered, dipping her head down to hack up some blood and water. She felt sick. She again took a gag, this time more blood and some of her breakfast. Speaking of which.. What time was it?! She was to unsure.. To insecure.. She padded on to fin shelter.

"Killer..? Killer?!" She cried. She heard paw steps.. She was terrified.. When she could go no more she lay down. She was done. If life would toss her aside, then so be it. She sat there and waited for her death.. She hoped it arrived painlessly.. She didn't want death.. She wanted Killer... She wanted love...

[715 words o.o Kill me now please.. Sorry this was way dramatic x3 Forgive please.]

[Killer]

(Sorry I have been gone I am working on my post for this sorry I have not been on for so long)