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[Darkpaw]

His amber gaze was unfocused and fuzzy as he stared at the leaves that pile up in the camp day in and day out. They came in all sorts of colors, but the majority of them was brown. The color brown was not his favorite color, but it was no less pretty than any other. He flicked his ears, a slight frown on his mouth as he turned upwards. The tips of trees shown tall, their bark blackened with the cold days, each chillier and more biting than the last.
The white tom shivered once, his eyes cast towards the apprentice den where he rested in the night hours. It was a rather cold den when you had nary a person to talk to. He frowned, he was a bit of a jerk though. His frown deepened and shook his head. He cursed silently before looking down at his paws. He continued to stare until a shadow fell across him. He didn't look up, "Yes?" He acknowledged.

[Rivershine]

Lionsmoke walked back into camp, his jaws filled with pieces of prey to give to Wolfmist and their children. The blue-colored tom was just about to enter the nursery when he noticed a familiar figure standing alone. It was one of his sons he had with Lightfall, Darkpaw. Apparently, he was also the apprentice of his mate, Wolfmist. Glancing at the nursery, he padded away from it, dropping it in the pile before deciding to go and speak with his son.

He hadn't spoken to the tom in a long time, maybe since the cat was a kit. Lionsmoke felt a feeling of nervousness as he approached him, giving him a frown. If he knew that he was there, why didn't he look up? "It's been a while, hasn't it?" he meowed, hoping that this time he would look at him.

don't know if you remember me, but lionsmoke was swallowflight. just changed his name. ^^

[Darkpaw]

He instantly recognized the voice, although it had indeed been some time since he'd last heard it. His eyes snapped up and he narrowed his eyes at the sight of his father. Darkpaw did indeed remember this cat, the one had abandoned he and his siblings, left them all to wonder what they had done wrong to not deserve the love and want of their father. But, Darkpaw did not voice any of these things. He kept his tongue in check and acted like the civil cat he was.
"Yes, it has. Last time we met, you said you wanted nothing to do with my littermates and I. We were mistakes, never meant to be." Did't mean he wouldn't bring it up. If this cat wanted to talk to him now, he'd better be prepared to explain himself.
The tom shrugged his shoulders, "But that's behind us, we're both more mature. How have you been?" He asked in a deadpanned voice.

[Rivershine]

Lionsmoke obtained a frown on his face, his yellow gaze half-closed in a narrowed way. I don't remember saying that. Maybe I'm getting too old to remember things. The dark cat didn't fight back. He had had enough with fighting. If he was going to talk to this cat, he wasn't going to fight with him.

"I am fine, thank you. What about yourself? How is training going along?" Lionsmoke knew that perhaps his kits would hate him for never speaking to them. To defend himself, he hardly spoke to his own mate for a long time.

[Orchidpaw]

-hope you don't mind me posting here. orchid is lion's daughter, so i thought it could be interesting lol-

Orchidkit trotted out of the nursery, brown eyes bright and cheerful. Her siblings, ashkit and rosekit, were sleeping last time she had checked. Hm. Maybe i can meet new friends! Or...or I can go visit daddy! the warrior's den seemed pretty empty, so instead she searched the clearing for Lionsmoke. he must have been somewhere in the camp, if not training his apprentice.

It didn't take long before the tall ( for her age ) female spotted the much larger, fluffy blue-gray tom. SHe started towards him, excited, until she realized he was talking to a white tom, clearly younger than her father. "Daddy?" She asked, blinking up at him. "Who is that?"

where is my love?

♡

[Darkpaw]

Even if that wasn't exactly how he'd said it, that was how it felt to his brother and sister. Darkpaw hadn't cared at the time, but as time passed he realized just how much of a nuisance it really was. Unlike a lot of cats in the clan, he actually had a mother and father. "Training is fine. I found out swimming is incredibly stupid and that it's a waste of time." He didn't like water, hated it.
"I've made a few friends in the apprentice den." That was a lie, they thought he was the grouchiest cat ever. But he didn't admit that to his father either. "Life goes on, pretty slowly actually."
A voice attracted his attention and he turned to see a grey tabby kit with dark brown eyes. This cat was calling Lionsmoke her father. "I'm your half-brother, your father had kits with another cat which in turn made me. My name is Darkpaw, nice to meet you." He greeted with a nod. They were also cousins, but he wasn't going to go into all that.

[Rivershine]

Lionsmoke gave a small grunt. "Not much of a swimmer myself. Not anymore, at least." he replied, tilting his head to the side. Maybe he could reform the bond he had with the tom when they had talked when Darkpaw first became an apprentice. He wasn't sure though. It sounded like the tom wanted to not like him.

The smokey-blue cat turned his head to see Orchidkit running over. A small, dreaded feeling grew in the pit of his stomach. CloudClan, can this get any worse? He loved his kits, but sometimes they just had to stay away. Darkpaw would probably reveal something he didn't want Orchidkit to know. "Hello, darling." Darkpaw had seemed to take over his introduction.

But, he hadn't seem to leave out the fact that he had a different mother.

Lionsmoke shot his son a look, giving his head a small shake. It was too early for her to find out about that. Now, everything was going downhill, at least in his own eyes.

[Orchidpaw]

Orchidkit gazed up at darkpaw. "I'm ORchidkit, and lionsmoke here is my daddy!" She squeaked, tilting her head as she listened to him. "MY brother? Does that mean Wolfmist had a different litter before us-?" Her question was cut off as darkpaw continued explaining. "W-with another cat?" She frowned, confused, and looked up at her dad.

"That's not true, is it? It can't be! You love mommy, right?" She asked, setting her foot down defiantly as she turned back to the white male. "Your lying!"

where is my love?

♡

[Darkpaw]

The white male shook his head, "I fear not. Trust me, he indeed does love your mother more. My mother was simply doing her job, you could not begin to understand the amount of care and love going into your growth. I never grew up with a father until now, so don't think of it as him not loving your mother any less, but rather a mistake. Like when you eat a mouse even though you wanted a vole instead." He tried to explain that it wasn't like what she was thinking. Darkpaw knew perfectly well that he was not loved as equally as this she-cat. He understood and accepted it.
He turned back to Lionsmoke, "It seems I've spilled more than I was supposed to." He said rather nonchalantly. "But yes, you do love Wolfmist." He shrugged his shoulders.

[Rivershine]

Lionsmoke felt annoyance grow even more at Darkpaw. He glanced down at his newly born daughter, whisking his tail over her shoulders. He leaned down. "Listen, Orchidkit. You know I love Wolfmist. Your mother knows about this too, and she's given me the same treatment everyone else has given me. I have learned my lesson, and that's why you're here. Now, why don't you go back into the nursery. She must be getting worried about you."

He looked back at Darkpaw. "Besides, I have a few things I would like to say to your brother in private." Lionsmoke gave a small nudge on the she-kit's flank, turning back to his son.

"What in CloudClan's name are you doing? Are you mouse brained? You may hate me, but don't try to ruin their minds." The dark colored cat snorted. "And, stop calling yourself a mistake. It's true I didn't intend on having you with Lightfall, but that doesn't mean I never loved you or your brother and sister. There was a reason I was never here, you know that, don't you? I would have been here otherwise." Lionsmoke lashed his tail, agitation in his gaze.

[Orchidpaw]

"M-mistake? That's terrible! I don't think your a mistake, even if your parents didn't mean for you to be born," she was intent on making this new cat feel better. "I bet your mommy loves you just as much as my mommy loves me." 

"I'm old enough to be outside!" She protested. "who was she?" She inquired, but her words were lost in her father's next words. OOh. What's he gonna say? she was too curious to leave, and, instead, backed up and out of lionsmoke's vision.

"Lightfall?!" she spoke up half way between lionsmoke's words. "That's my aunt! That's mommy's sister! Why did you have a kit with mommy's sister? Do you like her more?" ORchidkit was terribly confused.

where is my love?

♡

[Darkpaw]

Darkpaw scoffed and lashed his tail similarly to his, "And why shouldn't they know? We're family after all, they may as well know now rather than later. It's much easier to break news to a younger cat than an older one, as you should already know. And don't pretend like you loved us back then as you claim, my siblings were devastated to know you didn't know who they were! You come back now saying that you care for us and want to be there, but is that actually love or guilt? Mistake or not, we are all family and she deserves to know now." He looked back at the kit and sighed.
"That's a bad word for it. It was more like an accident, we definitely weren't planned. My mother loved us very much, that I can promise." He said.

[Rivershine]

Lionsmoke rolled his eyes. "I wasn't going to tell them yet, though! They were just born! They wouldn't understand what's going on." he snapped. "I did love you! Lightfall never told me that she was having my children until I met you three!" he exclaimed, exasperated. "You can ask her that yourself." The dark colored cat was having enough with his family treating him like the enemy. First Wolfmist, and now it was Darkpaw. Who next? Maybe Jaypaw will come back and start blaming me for not trying to find him again! "You don't know what I have gone through!" the tom shouted, his hackles raised high.

Lionsmoke turned to see Orchidkit, still there. "I thought I sent you off to the nursery." he meowed, closing his eyes with a sigh. The tom sat down, shaking his head. He didn't open his eyes as Darkpaw spoke to her. I'm done with this.

[Orchidpaw]

She looked up at darkpaw. "That's okay. I'll keep you company - I can be your friend!" She grinned, pleased with her kindness. She flinched at her father's shouting, looking up at him with wide eyes. "Daddy...?" She watched as he sat down with his eyes closed. He looks sad.

"You know I don't hate you, right?" She asked, moving towards him. She sat beside the larger tom, leaning into him. "Don't be so sad, okay? I think Darkpaw might forgive you sometime," She looked up at the white tom with hopeful eyes. She padded towards the apprentice. "You should know, Mister, that daddy couldn't spend time with you because he was looking for his brother," she gave a nod and sat down. "See? He needed to find his brother because he misses him. He does care about family, okay? It's not entirely his fault."

where is my love?

♡

[Darkpaw]

He was doing it again. The whole 'being a complete and utter jerk'. He was doing nothing but upsetting those around him and he was only making it worse for himself by angering him. He looked at Orchidkit as she suggested forgiveness, "I guess. Not entirely his fault, no it's...mine as well. I'm not exactly pleasant to be around. I see where I get it now." He chuckled, shaking his head. "I don't hate him, I've never said that. It's just...I've always grown up without ever interacting with you." He switched back to Lionsmoke. "You weren't ever around, what were we supposed to think except that you didn't want us? What was I supposed to do? Pray to the stars that you'd show up and suddenly talk to us? It may not have been true, but it seemed as if you didn't want us, let alone like us. Either way,I'm apologizing if it came off as hating you, I was just angry." He glared down at his paws, flicking his tail. What was anyone supposed to think after they were left to wonder why if they had been loved or not? To truly hate his father would mean that he wouldn't have any sort family. Lightfall was far too busy and he hadn't seen his siblings in moons.

I rambled too much. Sorry if it's a bit jumbled.