Spring is a Lie [o]

[Crystalbird]

((.... The title has nothing to do with anything other than the actual weather where i live. Spring no longer exists where I live, and if it does... It exists for maybe... A week. Or less. A fraction in here... Another fraction a month later....))

Crystalbird was quietly eating a mouse by the fresh-kill pile, as she thought about the state of affairs in Treeclan. The clan was divided into rebels and loyalists. One side led by Yellowburr, the other by herself, and Arrowstar. Said leader wanted to do an awful lot of things that she didn't approve of. Moving the loyalists away from the rebels. Sending a spy to find out what the rebels were thinking. Not show up to ceremonies he should be doing! Personally, she thought he could be doing a better job of proving to the rebels that he honestly cared about Treeclan.

So far, she was pretty sure the rebels thought that the clan's leadership was actively trying to either sabotage them or were simply straight up incompetent. She wasn't sure which was more insulting, honestly. Hadn't she proved herself as a member of Treeclan, yet?! She lived here. She had been living here! She came to Treeclan some seven moons ago, and she'd proved herself in that time. What was it going to take?! Dying in Treeclan's name?! In that case, it didn't matter what she did because if she had to die, well... Nothing would ever happen to her again, after that. 

She pulled herself out of her thoughts, and looked beside her to see someone had joined her. As she'd been... Maybe brooding a little, she'd probably came off a little grumpy. "Did you need something?" Her voice could've been friendlier, as well.

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May glanced around camp and her eyes caught upon their deputy who was upset about something or towards someone. Probably towards multiple people. She herself really hadn't picked a side, so she understood the point of view of both. Were she forced to chose she would also probably be forced to chose the Loyalists as she was born outside the clan.

At Crystalbird's question she shook her head and asked her own, "Arr you alright?" She wasn't sure that that was exsactly what she wanted to know, but it was the best she could go for without seeming rude or inconsiderate. That was something she needed to work on now. As a kit she had set a schedule for herself. As a kit she had split what she worked on into moons on. She had learned to lip read, interpert others emotions whichever she had already had a knack for reading, and she gave herself two moons to learn to tell when someone was lying. Sure it didn't work on all cats, but few cats strived to hide what they were feeling, or practiced lying. Now, as an apprentice, she had just set two goals. Be nicer to others, which meant using a lot more tact, and keep up with her acctual training while practicing the skills she had learned as a kit and making them better.

[Crystalbird]

Crystalbird saw a young apprentice asking after her well-being. She shrugged. "As best as can be expected." She replied nonchalantly. She felt a tiny bit scrutinized by the apprentice for some strange reason, though she ignored the feeling. She shouldn't feel too paranoid around an apprentice. Especially one that seemed more well-intentioned than Squirrelbite.

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May shook her head slightly. "And how well is that exsactly?" she asked through slightly narrowed eyes. She really didn't understand why the cats of Treeclan were so stressed, and yet everyone seemed to be. Sure she knew about what had happened but she didn't understand why cats were making it such a big deal. It had always been an issue, so what had really brought it to the next level? She wasn't quite sure it was just a cat to strongly lead them.

[Crystalbird]

Crystalbird tilted her head, looking down at the apprentice. Then she wore a light smirk and shrugged. "Eh. Who knows, honestly. Expectations are very subjective, y'know. Not a good measure of anything, really." She said, her attention seemingly moving from the apprentice towards the sky. She seemed to have ceased being grumpy.

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May nodded. "I think that's the first time someone has answered like that." she said distantly before smiling and turning her attention back to the deputy. "Im May," she introduced, "That's short for Maplepaw."

[Crystalbird]

Crystalbird shrugged. "I'm not exactly what any cat expects of me." She commented. "Hm. Good name, kiddo." She contemplated sharing her self-chosen nickname... But ultimately sided against it. She was still trying to prove she belonged her, and owning her clan name was a big part of that.