Post by Morningdew on Aug 22, 2010 16:12:28 GMT -6
(Please don't comment on the title, it makes sense later on.)
Sweet sweet insanity…
Chapter 1: New starts
Perfect skin, perfect hair, perfect everything. That’s how you describe me, Bloom Vega. As usual I threw on a designer tee and super cute designer label skinny jeans, practically tearing apart my room looking for my lucky scrunchie. Finally finding it in the last place I thought it would be, on my dresser. I felt like such a blonde but then again I had auburn colored hair with blonde highlights. Giggling I put ring curls through my perfectly straight hair, throwing half of my hair in a ponytail with the scrunchie. Next I got my lightly sparkled pink eye shadow and lightly applied it twice. Following with mascara and blush, not needing cover up on my again perfect skin. Last, I put on a layer of long lasting lip-gloss, today was my first day of high school, and I wasn’t screwing it up. I couldn’t even bare to think about my old self, I was a ugly dork who followed popular girls around. But now I would be one of them, hopefully.
Doing a last check I grabbed my hand bag and headed out the door, smirking as the neighbors boy’s mouth hangs open. My parents dropped me off but knew not to say anything like, “Goodbye pookie!” or “Love you snookie poo!” Thankfully, I watched as envious girls stared, way out of my league boys had their mouths dropped, and the popular’s eyes were all on me. As I passed the populars I just strutted pass as they said hey, waving a sweet hi then continued walking. All of a sudden my heart stopped, time slowed down, and I was breathless. What I was looking at was the most gorgeous guy I had ever seen, he made me feel like I was the only person in this whole school. He made me feel like I was that dorky old me, but somehow in a good way I couldn’t explain.
I was speechless seeing him walk right up to me, smiling. Somehow without speaking words appeared in my mind. I’ve waited a long time for this moment… As soon as the sentence was over he placed his hand on my cheek, I was barely breathing. Kissing my cheek he slowly walked away, his fingers brushing my cheek as he left. Shaking my head I thought. What am I thinking!? I don’t even know his name! A girl with blonde hair and blue eyes walked up to me from over by the populars, she was grinning. “So I see you met Devon, he seems pretty interested in you. Listen why don’t you join me and my friends and we can hang? Oh by the way im Tasha.” Tasha said pointing to the populars, but I just nodded following her thinking about Devon the whole way.
“So um Devon is? Like tell me about him.” I said applying a light layer of chap stick.
“Well he loves baseball and he is currently single. Oh! Also he is really romantic, or so ive heard.” She emphasized single and apparently he’s a flirt. Finally we reach a group consisting of two other girls. A petite blonde with blue streaks, and a gymnast body brunette with blonde streaks. “Ok this is Taylor.” Tasha said pointing to the brunette, then pointing to the blonde. “This is Chloe, and girls this is?” I realized I failed to mention my name. “Bloom Vega.” I practically blurted out, my cheeks a bit hot with embarrassment.
“OMG!” Chloe exclaimed followed by the same responses from Taylor and Tasha. “I absolutely love your name! Its so pretty.” I only smiled then finally started talking. “So since we are obviously into the same sense of fashion…” I say looking at us all wearing designer tees and designer label skinny jeans. We laughed and then I added, “How about going to the mall after school?” They squealed nodding and I knew that was a hook, line, and sinker. All I had to do was survive today....
Chapter 2:Lunch and Devon<3333
So far I had gone through French, English, and Math. French was a total breeze, same with the others, I used to be a nerd and all. Now was lunch and everyone was practically begging me to sit with them but the only person I cared for was Devon…
“Hey…” Devon whispered in my ear coming up behind me. That feeling came again, the heart stopping, forgetting to breath, and time slowing down. “Listen, why don’t we ditch this place and go somewhere a little more… private?” He said kissing my cheek softly, I willed myself to say no and walk away, he obviously just wanted to hook up and end it there. But something made, I mean forced me to say yes and follow him. We ended up behind the Cafeteria, leaning in his lips found mine. But just as soon as it started it ended, he just gave me a pat on the head. “Good new girl, obey me and you get a treat.” He smirked walking away leaving me utterly confused knowing he’s playing with me, im the dog and he’s the master.
Lunch was not over yet, I walked over to Tasha and Taylor and Chloe. Sat down and ate my salad, looking with hate at Devon. There he sat with some gorgeous blonde she was thin but not a twig, had light red highlights, and most importantly had, “Devon.” I breathed out loud. “Hello? Earth to Bloom?” Chloe said waving her hand in front of my face as I snapped back to reality. “Oh no…” She said noticing Devon and the blonde, pointing it out to Taylor and Tasha.
“That’s Madeline, she’s a bad popular. Evil is one word for her, and now she’s his girlfriend great, just great.” Huffed Taylor obviously annoyed.
“He kissed me, he’s playing with me, im the dog and he is the master and nothing can change that. Im just his side girl apparently, but im bound to him and I can’t do anything about it…” I said sighing, my new friends comforted me.Soon I decided he won’t rule my life. “You know what? He isn’t winning, I’m not going down without at fight. How about we treat Devon like he treats me…” They all nodded excitingly, so there we planned…
“Ok so Taylor and Chloe will go up first, then Tasha you come up and smother him too. My job is to get Madeline, and Tasha you seal the deal.” I said smiling evilly, Devon was going to pay for what he did.
Chapter 3:Insanity begins
I had a free period but unfortunately so did Devon, he whisked behind me drawing me in. “Doesn’t Madeline need you right about now?” I said walking faster.
“Maybe, but my attention is to you now.” He smiled putting his arm around me, soon were at his car, I want to run, now. “Aww don’t be nervous I hadn’t been to home base at one point too.” That’s when it hits me, I need to go now, or im part of this little game forever. But soon I feel that insanity creeping in, and as he parks in an empty parking lot I get a chill up my spine. He leans over making me kiss him, but this time im able to break free. Pushing him away I hop out of the hoodless car and run until I reach a bus and head home. Crying, I almost got forced into something I didn’t want at all. Soon I was home and I ran to my room.
“I need to call Tasha, I need to go to the mall.” I say changing into some short shorts and a tank top. Fixing my makeup and hair I head out having been told to wait out front for Tasha. Soon she arrived and I explained everything, every little detail.
“Omg! I can’t believe he did that, I can tell Madeline and they will be through. Then ruin his social life and everything, he can not get away with this.” She practically growled, pulling into the parking lot and walking to the entrance meeting Taylor and Chloe. Explaining it all to them too, we shopped and shopped until the mall closed and when I was home and done putting my clothes away I felt fine. Taking a shower and brushing my teeth and changing into PJ’s I crept into bed and fell into a nice needed sleep.
It was Friday, I decided to wear skinny jeans and a tank top. Something simple at the least, memories of the other night were blurry, like something happened before I ran away from him. But why can’t I remember? Anyways it didn’t matter now, Tasha was picking me up soon and I had to hurry up. Throwing my hair up in a messy ponytail I ran outside when I heard that loud honk! As I hopped in I lightly pushed her, “Honk loud enough?”
“Nope, considering how long you took!” She said laughing and speeding out of the driveway, the drive was the usual boring quietness. Of course until Tasha couldn’t take the silence any longer. “Hey why don’t we ditch today? I mean come on its Friday why don’t we live it to the fullest?” Thinking about it I wanted too, but then again should I really ditch classes? No, I couldn’t think like that, I had to be the cool new me.
“Lets hit the mall first.” I finally decided with a smile spreading across my face. Tasha sped up turning on Sunshine Boulevard, it took a while to finally find a parking spot, but this old lady finally left and we got the spot near the front. Tasha and I shared a smile as we strutted in, heading into Rue 21 first, I saw an adorable sketchy drawing tee with a girl holding a flower on the front. It came with a boyfriend jacket and it was so cute I just had to have it. Picking it up I took it to the counter and swiped my credit card, paying for it that easily. I changed into it, the tee looked super cute on me, and the jacket complimented it well. Tasha agreed and she got new pink strappy high heels, they matched her headband and some pink on her shirt, so she put them on. We were pretty satisfied with what we got, but hey there were a ton of stores in the mall.
“Hey Bloom lets go to Hot Topic, I want to see if they have a new Justin Bieber t-shirt or maybe a new bracelet.” I just nodded following her, one girl complimented on Tasha’s high heels. I was kind of disappointed she didn’t say anything about my new tee shirt and jacket, did Tasha really think this was cute? What am I saying, of course she does, doesn’t she?
Chapter 4:Chemicals React
Today I decided I needed to put the plan in motion, texting Taylor and Chloe I told them to get ready to meet us at the entrance. I put on a pair of shorts and a plain pink t-shirt. Meeting Tasha out at her car as she pulled up. She was talking to Taylor and Chloe apparently.
“Ok you should see him at the entrance, I’m pulling up right now.” Tasha hung up and I climbed into the passenger’s seat then Tasha giggled. "Someone is looking plain today." Then I saw she was wearing a mini skirt and tank top with high heels for our little mission. When we walked into the entrance of the school Devon was flirting with Taylor and Chloe, perfect I thought. Tasha nodded knowing what to do, she strutted up to Devon flipping her hair she smiled that oh so flirty smile. He fell for it as she leaned in to kiss him, I quickly ran to Madeline as Tasha held off the kiss for a few seconds.
“Madeline! No questions just come with me.” I said pulling her into view of Tasha and Devon, then the kiss happened. He kissed her back, you could tell, Madeline’s face was covered with disbelief as she ran over. Tasha, Taylor, and Chloe ran waving goodbye to Devon, they came straight to me.
“We did it!” Taylor said cheering with us as we celebrated our sneaky victory.
“Wow Madeline is pretty pissed off, look at her face.” Taylor said smirking, pointing at Madeline yelling at Devon. We watched laughing, then when we had enough we walked to our classes.
Devon’s face made me smile every time I thought about him, only because he was just so mad. In chemistry he was my lab partner and he was so focused on me he poured water into acid instead of the other way, and the whole thing made an explosion. I laughed so hard that Tasha had to give me water before I ended up rolling on the floor. At lunch Josh waved for me to sit by him, but I couldn’t bare to do it, suddenly I realized something I should have a long time ago. I did like someone else, but he was off limits, very off limits.
Chapter 5:Sometimes lines are crossed…
There he was, sitting at his usual lunch spot, his blonde hair covering his sea green eyes. I knew Chloe would be extremely mad if I went out with him, considering that was her brother. “Hey, you know its for the best not to talk to him.” Taylor said coming up behind me, I tore my gaze away from him and put it on Taylor.
“But…but…but! I really like Ian…” I responded, I could feel his eyes piercing a gaze so deep into my soul. If only things were different and not this way, then I knew that sometimes lines need to be crossed. “Listen can I be alone for a minute?” I said sweetly to Taylor and she nodded walki- I mean strutting away in her new high heels. Looking at Ian I slowly started walking over there, he met me halfway, I almost wanted to scream with joy.
“Hey.” Ian said with his hands in his pockets, looking shyly away for merely a second.
“Hola.” I said cutely twirling my hair for absolutely no reason at all.
“Listen…I know my sister doesn’t want us to um, hang out. But how about I take you to that really nice new restaurant, Heaven in Paris. What do yah say?” He said using that flirty smile that made me melt.
“I say I’d love too! How about Friday at 7:00? Here’s my number…” I said excitingly writing it down on his hand.
“That sounds great, see you then.” Ian replied winking and walking away, but when I heard that familiar voice behind me I froze.
"So I tell you he’s off limits and you totally go for him? Wow your such a bitch!” Chloe yelled making the whole quad look at her, she mouthed whore and walked off. Leaving me completely stunned and just standing there, this was karma, pure, cold karma. Ian asked me out and Chloe totally flipped, of course, nothing can ever go smooth for me. Devon didn’t even matter any more, I got what I wanted, its all about me. But now I’m not sure I want it that way, I don’t want it that way at all. But I just realized something, something very unsettling. This is the life of me, Bloom Vega, and I guess I just have to deal with it.
Chapter 6:Harmless at first sight…deadly at second glance
Chloe was acting extremely weird, it was like she was completely not herself, like a robot or something. It was just plain creepy, she would stare at me and it felt like she was burning a hole in my back. Ian said that at home she screamed in her room for no reason, its like she is going insane. Taylor and Tasha ditched her and only hang out with me now, but I always feel like Chloe is watching my every move. That feeling made me nearly want to scream and run to Ian, he felt like my only safe place. The only place Chloe couldn’t touch me was in his arms, that’s when I got the text, the text that changed everything. Slowly I gulped and read it, knowing this was bad. Hey Bloom! Look who’s all cheery about her little boyfriend! Well you better watch you back…I’m always watching you Bloom Vega…-Chloe. I knew things were about to take a turn for the worse and I needed Ian to stand by me every moment of it.
“Bloom, hey what’s wrong?” Taylor said coming up, noticing the text and gasping, but I was to afraid to breath, to afraid of her. “Oh my god…We won’t let that freak touch you, Tasha and I, I promise.” But her words didn’t help, didn’t comfort me at all, not even one bit. There she was, staring at me, this had gone to far, I had to take a stand, make this fear go away. I ran over to her and grabbed her shirt, throwing my fist at her face and feeling my adrenaline race as it hit her jaw. “Don’t ever threaten me ok!” I hissed in her ear, and then she bit me! Right on my arm! “Freak!” I yelled at her shaking my now bleeding arm.
“I warned you, now you should really watch your back…” Chloe said laughing in an almost insane way while she walked down the hall holding her jaw. I just mouthed insane freak after her but Taylor grabbed my good arm and took me to the nurse. Luckily the bleeding stopped after a little bit, but it left this weird mark, almost like permanent drops of blood. The nurse said it was nothing but a scar and should go away, but I wasn’t convinced. As we walked out with my bandaged arm Ian walked up.
“Hey I saw what happened, and Tasha told me about the text, Taylor texted her it. My sister so had that coming but I mean biting you? That was way out of line, I’m really sorry, are we still on for tonight?” He asked sweetly, I nodded and hugged him, taking in his warmth and safety he offered me. Waving goodbye he headed off, I was so excited about tonight but something told me it would be a very interesting evening.
Chapter 7:First dates are killer, literally
Taking a deep breath I looked at the girl I saw in the mirror, I didn’t even look like myself. My auburn hair with blonde highlights was curled but not put half up to hide my obviously nice bangs, that I hated for some reason. I was wearing a short, silk dress that just shied short of my knees, it was a light purple with a black ribbon under the chest part, and it was strapless. Tasha took one look at me and couldn’t help but smile, I had black eyeliner on and purple sparkly eye shadow, and of course lip gloss that was quite shiny on my lips. Shaking my head I covered my face with my hands, I didn’t even try to stop myself from giggling.
“Well I guess I have found the most beautiful girl ever.” Ian said suddenly appearing at the front door we had left unlocked for him, I was still standing in the hallway. Then he came over and put his arm around me, but I ignored him and gave Tasha a hug waving goodbye to her. Then we walked out to his car and I slid into the passenger’s seat. The ride over to the restaurant was a blur, I had the most sickening feeling in my stomach that Tasha shouldn’t be alone in my house, a buzzing nearly made me leap out of my seat. Realizing it was my phone I knew this was a very bad thing, slowly bringing my gaze to the screen I read the horrific text. Hey bff! You know Tasha really was such a nice girl…too bad you just left her like that. Kisses xoxo-Chloe.
That text made me break into tears, I knew what Chloe was capable of and I just left Tasha all alone like that!
“Oh no…” Ian said reading the text, he spun the car around making the wheels screech. But I just sat there, unable to think that was probably the last time I would ever see Tasha. My world just felt like it was crumbling down, all because of me… As we parked in the driveway of my house I got the most bone chilling feeling. I had to be prepared for what we might find, but it was just to much. Ian hugged me and we held hands tightly as we walked in, the house was dead silent. Pieces of paper on the walls had arrows pointing towards the kitchen, we slowly and cautiously followed. Knowing Chloe was long gone by now, but she had left her prey for us to find.
“Oh my god!” I said holding my hand over my mouth I screamed into my hand, bursting into tears. There sitting like she was texting sat the dead body of Tasha, her once warm eyes cold, dead, icy cold. Turning I clutched onto Ian and buried my head into his t-shirt, he dialed 911 and explained everything. But everything was so blurry, I couldn’t take it all in. I just kept screaming in agony and crying, when the cops and ambulance got there I just shut everyone out and stayed the night at Taylor’s…
Chapter 8:Funerals are a drag
Every breath was a struggle, everyday things felt like trying to climb Mt. Everest. I just stared at my wall, not excepting Tasha was…dead. It was like she was there one minute and gone the next, like she disappeared off this world never to be seen again. Taylor and me spent the night together every night, we stayed together every moment, so she couldn’t take another bff from me. Chloe still came to school, but the cops didn’t believe she did it, there was no evidence she was ever at my house. But it had to be her! Didn’t it? Right now I felt like the insane one, but Taylor and Ian told me that the cops will find something to say Chloe killed Tasha. Did I believe that? Nope, not one bit. Chloe was to smart for me, for the cops, she had sent those texts from an unknown number. Even though she signed it, the cops said that someone was probably framing her, which made me really mad.
It didn’t matter how much I tried to deny it, Chloe was in my head, and she was trying to make me go insane. The truth is, she’s winning, undeniably winning…
Right after lunch I decided to go to school, I came home for lunch today. When I got there during the lunch break Devon waited. Oh god I thought I made this problem go away, obviously not. He smiled stopping me, I simply rolled my eyes trying to get past. But he was to strong, so I stood where I was waiting for him to speak.
“You know, its funny how you psyched me the other day, I know your not dating Josh or me. So who?” Devon asked tilting his head with his own little flirty smile, but his made me sick.
“Ian, you know Chloe’s brother?” A smirk appeared on my face as his expression changed to jealousy, I could feel the negative energy flowing from him. It was almost overbearing, but I just walked over to Ian and pulled on his t-shirt so our lips met. It felt like static sparked between us, he looked surprised but happy. Thinking of him as Chloe’s brother made me shiver, how could someone so sweet be related to her? That made me remember Tasha’s funeral was today, at 3:30-6:30. I waved goodbye to Ian and made it through the rest of my classes, getting home with Taylor as fast as possible. We changed into black dresses, they were shortish with a little puffiness at the bottom. Leaving out the door I took a deep breath and stepped into Taylor’s Mercedes, blue to be exact.
The funeral was so beautiful, curtains draped across the ceiling, elegant flowers everywhere. Tasha would have loved this…Then I looked back at the entrance as we took our seats and my eyes couldn’t believe what they saw. It made me breathless, wanting to push her out, calling her a murderer. There at the entrance stood Chloe, in a silk pink dress with a few jewels. How dare she wear such a happy color on this day! She took her seat and the funeral went by quickly, when Chloe got up to say one last goodbye to Tasha I saw a smirk on her face. As she left I stared in disbelief, going up to the coffin I laid my delicate fingers on Tasha’s face one last time. Taking that final step of letting go I walked away, struggling not to cry.
Chapter 9:Sorrow and insanity race, but who will win?
Sorrow fills my heart to the brim, overflowing my emotions, depression was one step away. But insanity overwhelms me, I see Tasha walking towards me, her hand out, she is screaming for my help. I want to help her but I can’t reach her, and then she fades away like she was never there… They all think I’m insane and I need help, I am afraid if they are right or not, but Ian tells me I’m beautiful and I’m just in shock. We went to the beach yesterday, best.day.ever.
There we sat, right where the waves washed up, just at the brim. Our toes feeling the chill of the water, then it happened. Our eyes met, his sea green, mine a crystal blue, it was so amazing. He leaned in, I hesitated but his gaze reassured me, his lips found mine. I wanted that moment to last the rest of eternity…
Shaking my head of that truly unforgettable memory I raced out the door, my hair crimped today and my usual makeup. I wore a pair of shorts and a t-shirt with a sketchy drawing on it, it was one of my favorites lately. Taylor followed me out, I live with her now, my parents moved away and I wanted to stay here. She wore shorter shorts and a tank top, her brunette hair curled. When we walked into the school I felt stares burning into my back. You know that feeling when someone is talking about you? Well times that by 1800 and that’s how bad I felt. Chloe smiled and waved at me, but I wasn’t giving her the satisfaction of watching me squirm so I kept walking.
“Hey crazy! Taken your medication yet?” Boys shouted as I passed, one of them was Josh, and that stung that he would do that. Ian walked up and put his arm around me, we walked down the hall hearing all the insults towards me. Who could blame them? I am insane after all…I mean come on with no evidence Chloe didn’t kill Tasha, I’m just insane and I blamed her.
“Bloom don’t listen to them, they are just jerks.” Taylor said patting me on the back to comfort me. I pretended to act like that helped, it didn’t but I had to stop acting so depressed. I forced a smile as we walked into French, that seemed to cheer Taylor up and even Ian too. If I’m going insane I’m doing a pretty good job at pulling it off. In Math, people laughed and pointed at me, snickering about how I’m just such a complete psycho. That made me so mad, clenching my fists I lost my temper, I looked at one of the girls laughing about me and grabbed her shirt. Looking her straight in the eyes I imagined her choking, straining for every breath of air. Suddenly she grabbed her throat and started coughing, I let go as she lay on the floor gasping for breath, smiling I continued class. But I got tired of the questions so I left the classroom without a word.
I just went home and stared at my ceiling until I fell asleep, waiting for morning to come…
Chapter 10:So yesterday…
Not today, she was not beating me, Chloe was not taking this away from me. Smirking as I approached her door, I knocked, the door opened to reveal Chloe looking at me annoyed.
“Look I don’t have time for you, go run off and take some more of your meds k?” She said, but I stopped the door with my hand, looking at her I thought of her in total agony, complete pain. Then she fell to the floor writhing in pain, I laughed insanely, making her pain worse she groaned and screamed. Ian came to the door and looked down at his sister, he bent down and tried to help. Looking at me he shook his head, “Were over.” Ian said taking his sister inside, leaving me just standing there. I didn’t even know what just happened, I blacked out and now I’m here. Exactly what did happen?
Taylor filled me in on what Ian said, she tried explaining I had no idea what happened but he wouldn’t listen. I really am insane…truly insane. A flashback came into my head, I was little, maybe five or six. A boy about twelve or thirteen came up to me and hit me, knocking me down. My eyes went black all of a sudden as he backed up, suddenly he fell screaming over and over…then silence, complete cold, silence. His skin was white and cold, his eyes sightless. I looked like I had saw a ghost as my eyes turned back to normal, my parents came in and I started crying…
That’s all I remember, I never remember that happening though. Which was weird, considering I remember the rest of my childhood. I didn’t want to hurt anyone, I ran to someone’s motorcycle in the parking lot. It had it’s keys in the side, I turned them in the ignition, it sprung to life. I hopped on, not bothering with a helmet, speeding away I headed down a dirt road, going as fast as possible. I saw that tree, I didn’t move, taking that last breath I heard the collision, felt it, then sweet, sweet blackness…
I saw Tasha! At least I think I did, I mean there was this light, but I didn’t feel the least bit attracted to it. I wandered around, then I saw that heart shaped face, that blonde hair, those blue eyes. She stared at me then ran away leaving a piece of paper behind, I tried to follow her but the paper seemed important. Picking it up I read it out loud to myself. “C is for Chloe, I is for insanity, P is for piece it together…” Ok I really didn’t get what Tasha was trying to tell me but I think Chloe has something to do with my insanity.
“How though? Tasha please answer me…” Another piece of paper floated by, I read it but this time to myself. Childhood memories erased…a mocking bird by the name of Chloe is there to make you repeat them… This still confused me, but I wondered if I would ever wake up from this weird dream, or was it a nightmare? Hard to tell right now, Tasha made me feel like Chloe was somehow connected to my childhood, how was that even possible though?
Chapter 11:Hospitals and insane people don’t mix
Lights, very bright lights clouded my vision, I heard the excitement of Taylor. She squealed at seeing me blink my eyes in confusion. I was dead just a few moments before though! Wasn’t I? Right now all I felt was the icy touch of Taylor, why were her hands so cold? It felt like she was so sad that it overwhelmed her sense of touch, but how could I tell that from one little touch? “Taylor w-wh-why are your h-hands s-s-so cold?” I asked so confused, she just stared at me with a weird look. Then the doctor walked up, she was tall, had brown hair, and dark brown eyes. Touching my wrist she felt for a pulse, her touch felt more like a fiery anger and sadness, then I saw these images. One was of a man who was walking out of this house, he was furious. Then I saw the doctor, she cried for him to come back but he didn’t.
“You had a NDE, or Near Death Experience, you may have some short side effects from this. Also I detected something when I took a scan of your brain…” Shooing everyone else out she came back to me, looking worried. “You have a severe case of personality disorder, I’m sorry, this causes sudden swings in emotions, and can have supernatural effects. I hear you put two girls in a lot of pain, but yet you didn’t touch them. You did it mentally, I will give you medication to help this and keep it under control but it will always be there.” She said, leaving me just staring at the wall, I wanted to die, so why hadn’t I? It’s a question I ask myself a lot lately, I wish this accident had killed me. Unfortunately though I only had a bunch of bruises and scratches, and a broken wrist.
“Hey crazy, looks like suicide was one way out huh?” Chloe said laughing while she walked in. I wanted to scream and launch myself at her, just keep hitting her, but I could do better. If I wanted too, I could kill her right here, believe me I wanted too. That wouldn’t solve anything though, she sat on the end of my hospital bed, I just stared at her. “Ok well I have a little story for you, I saw a picture of you when you were little and lets say it brought back some memories….Anyways I had another older brother once, his name was Cody, he was about 12 in this little story. So he was friends with the neighborhood girl who was about 5, but there was something mentally wrong with him. He liked the girl, in fact he said he loved her, when he told her she said she didn’t love him back. That made him mad so he hit her really hard, then he was found dead only moments later. Can you fill in the blanks Bloom? Oh I forgot the little girl happened to look just like you.” Chloe almost hissed the last part, then she got up and left, thank god.
Then the flashback came back, the one where my eyes turned black, the boy screaming in pain, the silence. It made me shutter, remembering that Tasha had warned me about Chloe, saying she was part of my past. I always knew there was something wrong with me, I mean come on who else has memory lapses? Can hurt people with her mind, and can feel emotions by touch? No one, that’s right, I have lost everything, and I mean everything. Ian hates me, if he finds out I murdered his brother… I can’t even imagine his reaction. Pain, anger, sadness, fury, all bad combinations but yet with a little love they all disappear.
“Hey, Bloom…why would you try to kill yourself?” Taylor said coming in, just then I thought of something. If I could kill others…can I kill myself? In my head I pictured myself just dieing, heart stopping, breathing cut off. It happened, no strings attached this time, the only thing left in my short life was my sweet, sweet insanity...
THE END
Sweet sweet insanity…
Chapter 1: New starts
Perfect skin, perfect hair, perfect everything. That’s how you describe me, Bloom Vega. As usual I threw on a designer tee and super cute designer label skinny jeans, practically tearing apart my room looking for my lucky scrunchie. Finally finding it in the last place I thought it would be, on my dresser. I felt like such a blonde but then again I had auburn colored hair with blonde highlights. Giggling I put ring curls through my perfectly straight hair, throwing half of my hair in a ponytail with the scrunchie. Next I got my lightly sparkled pink eye shadow and lightly applied it twice. Following with mascara and blush, not needing cover up on my again perfect skin. Last, I put on a layer of long lasting lip-gloss, today was my first day of high school, and I wasn’t screwing it up. I couldn’t even bare to think about my old self, I was a ugly dork who followed popular girls around. But now I would be one of them, hopefully.
Doing a last check I grabbed my hand bag and headed out the door, smirking as the neighbors boy’s mouth hangs open. My parents dropped me off but knew not to say anything like, “Goodbye pookie!” or “Love you snookie poo!” Thankfully, I watched as envious girls stared, way out of my league boys had their mouths dropped, and the popular’s eyes were all on me. As I passed the populars I just strutted pass as they said hey, waving a sweet hi then continued walking. All of a sudden my heart stopped, time slowed down, and I was breathless. What I was looking at was the most gorgeous guy I had ever seen, he made me feel like I was the only person in this whole school. He made me feel like I was that dorky old me, but somehow in a good way I couldn’t explain.
I was speechless seeing him walk right up to me, smiling. Somehow without speaking words appeared in my mind. I’ve waited a long time for this moment… As soon as the sentence was over he placed his hand on my cheek, I was barely breathing. Kissing my cheek he slowly walked away, his fingers brushing my cheek as he left. Shaking my head I thought. What am I thinking!? I don’t even know his name! A girl with blonde hair and blue eyes walked up to me from over by the populars, she was grinning. “So I see you met Devon, he seems pretty interested in you. Listen why don’t you join me and my friends and we can hang? Oh by the way im Tasha.” Tasha said pointing to the populars, but I just nodded following her thinking about Devon the whole way.
“So um Devon is? Like tell me about him.” I said applying a light layer of chap stick.
“Well he loves baseball and he is currently single. Oh! Also he is really romantic, or so ive heard.” She emphasized single and apparently he’s a flirt. Finally we reach a group consisting of two other girls. A petite blonde with blue streaks, and a gymnast body brunette with blonde streaks. “Ok this is Taylor.” Tasha said pointing to the brunette, then pointing to the blonde. “This is Chloe, and girls this is?” I realized I failed to mention my name. “Bloom Vega.” I practically blurted out, my cheeks a bit hot with embarrassment.
“OMG!” Chloe exclaimed followed by the same responses from Taylor and Tasha. “I absolutely love your name! Its so pretty.” I only smiled then finally started talking. “So since we are obviously into the same sense of fashion…” I say looking at us all wearing designer tees and designer label skinny jeans. We laughed and then I added, “How about going to the mall after school?” They squealed nodding and I knew that was a hook, line, and sinker. All I had to do was survive today....
Chapter 2:Lunch and Devon<3333
So far I had gone through French, English, and Math. French was a total breeze, same with the others, I used to be a nerd and all. Now was lunch and everyone was practically begging me to sit with them but the only person I cared for was Devon…
“Hey…” Devon whispered in my ear coming up behind me. That feeling came again, the heart stopping, forgetting to breath, and time slowing down. “Listen, why don’t we ditch this place and go somewhere a little more… private?” He said kissing my cheek softly, I willed myself to say no and walk away, he obviously just wanted to hook up and end it there. But something made, I mean forced me to say yes and follow him. We ended up behind the Cafeteria, leaning in his lips found mine. But just as soon as it started it ended, he just gave me a pat on the head. “Good new girl, obey me and you get a treat.” He smirked walking away leaving me utterly confused knowing he’s playing with me, im the dog and he’s the master.
Lunch was not over yet, I walked over to Tasha and Taylor and Chloe. Sat down and ate my salad, looking with hate at Devon. There he sat with some gorgeous blonde she was thin but not a twig, had light red highlights, and most importantly had, “Devon.” I breathed out loud. “Hello? Earth to Bloom?” Chloe said waving her hand in front of my face as I snapped back to reality. “Oh no…” She said noticing Devon and the blonde, pointing it out to Taylor and Tasha.
“That’s Madeline, she’s a bad popular. Evil is one word for her, and now she’s his girlfriend great, just great.” Huffed Taylor obviously annoyed.
“He kissed me, he’s playing with me, im the dog and he is the master and nothing can change that. Im just his side girl apparently, but im bound to him and I can’t do anything about it…” I said sighing, my new friends comforted me.Soon I decided he won’t rule my life. “You know what? He isn’t winning, I’m not going down without at fight. How about we treat Devon like he treats me…” They all nodded excitingly, so there we planned…
“Ok so Taylor and Chloe will go up first, then Tasha you come up and smother him too. My job is to get Madeline, and Tasha you seal the deal.” I said smiling evilly, Devon was going to pay for what he did.
Chapter 3:Insanity begins
I had a free period but unfortunately so did Devon, he whisked behind me drawing me in. “Doesn’t Madeline need you right about now?” I said walking faster.
“Maybe, but my attention is to you now.” He smiled putting his arm around me, soon were at his car, I want to run, now. “Aww don’t be nervous I hadn’t been to home base at one point too.” That’s when it hits me, I need to go now, or im part of this little game forever. But soon I feel that insanity creeping in, and as he parks in an empty parking lot I get a chill up my spine. He leans over making me kiss him, but this time im able to break free. Pushing him away I hop out of the hoodless car and run until I reach a bus and head home. Crying, I almost got forced into something I didn’t want at all. Soon I was home and I ran to my room.
“I need to call Tasha, I need to go to the mall.” I say changing into some short shorts and a tank top. Fixing my makeup and hair I head out having been told to wait out front for Tasha. Soon she arrived and I explained everything, every little detail.
“Omg! I can’t believe he did that, I can tell Madeline and they will be through. Then ruin his social life and everything, he can not get away with this.” She practically growled, pulling into the parking lot and walking to the entrance meeting Taylor and Chloe. Explaining it all to them too, we shopped and shopped until the mall closed and when I was home and done putting my clothes away I felt fine. Taking a shower and brushing my teeth and changing into PJ’s I crept into bed and fell into a nice needed sleep.
It was Friday, I decided to wear skinny jeans and a tank top. Something simple at the least, memories of the other night were blurry, like something happened before I ran away from him. But why can’t I remember? Anyways it didn’t matter now, Tasha was picking me up soon and I had to hurry up. Throwing my hair up in a messy ponytail I ran outside when I heard that loud honk! As I hopped in I lightly pushed her, “Honk loud enough?”
“Nope, considering how long you took!” She said laughing and speeding out of the driveway, the drive was the usual boring quietness. Of course until Tasha couldn’t take the silence any longer. “Hey why don’t we ditch today? I mean come on its Friday why don’t we live it to the fullest?” Thinking about it I wanted too, but then again should I really ditch classes? No, I couldn’t think like that, I had to be the cool new me.
“Lets hit the mall first.” I finally decided with a smile spreading across my face. Tasha sped up turning on Sunshine Boulevard, it took a while to finally find a parking spot, but this old lady finally left and we got the spot near the front. Tasha and I shared a smile as we strutted in, heading into Rue 21 first, I saw an adorable sketchy drawing tee with a girl holding a flower on the front. It came with a boyfriend jacket and it was so cute I just had to have it. Picking it up I took it to the counter and swiped my credit card, paying for it that easily. I changed into it, the tee looked super cute on me, and the jacket complimented it well. Tasha agreed and she got new pink strappy high heels, they matched her headband and some pink on her shirt, so she put them on. We were pretty satisfied with what we got, but hey there were a ton of stores in the mall.
“Hey Bloom lets go to Hot Topic, I want to see if they have a new Justin Bieber t-shirt or maybe a new bracelet.” I just nodded following her, one girl complimented on Tasha’s high heels. I was kind of disappointed she didn’t say anything about my new tee shirt and jacket, did Tasha really think this was cute? What am I saying, of course she does, doesn’t she?
Chapter 4:Chemicals React
Today I decided I needed to put the plan in motion, texting Taylor and Chloe I told them to get ready to meet us at the entrance. I put on a pair of shorts and a plain pink t-shirt. Meeting Tasha out at her car as she pulled up. She was talking to Taylor and Chloe apparently.
“Ok you should see him at the entrance, I’m pulling up right now.” Tasha hung up and I climbed into the passenger’s seat then Tasha giggled. "Someone is looking plain today." Then I saw she was wearing a mini skirt and tank top with high heels for our little mission. When we walked into the entrance of the school Devon was flirting with Taylor and Chloe, perfect I thought. Tasha nodded knowing what to do, she strutted up to Devon flipping her hair she smiled that oh so flirty smile. He fell for it as she leaned in to kiss him, I quickly ran to Madeline as Tasha held off the kiss for a few seconds.
“Madeline! No questions just come with me.” I said pulling her into view of Tasha and Devon, then the kiss happened. He kissed her back, you could tell, Madeline’s face was covered with disbelief as she ran over. Tasha, Taylor, and Chloe ran waving goodbye to Devon, they came straight to me.
“We did it!” Taylor said cheering with us as we celebrated our sneaky victory.
“Wow Madeline is pretty pissed off, look at her face.” Taylor said smirking, pointing at Madeline yelling at Devon. We watched laughing, then when we had enough we walked to our classes.
Devon’s face made me smile every time I thought about him, only because he was just so mad. In chemistry he was my lab partner and he was so focused on me he poured water into acid instead of the other way, and the whole thing made an explosion. I laughed so hard that Tasha had to give me water before I ended up rolling on the floor. At lunch Josh waved for me to sit by him, but I couldn’t bare to do it, suddenly I realized something I should have a long time ago. I did like someone else, but he was off limits, very off limits.
Chapter 5:Sometimes lines are crossed…
There he was, sitting at his usual lunch spot, his blonde hair covering his sea green eyes. I knew Chloe would be extremely mad if I went out with him, considering that was her brother. “Hey, you know its for the best not to talk to him.” Taylor said coming up behind me, I tore my gaze away from him and put it on Taylor.
“But…but…but! I really like Ian…” I responded, I could feel his eyes piercing a gaze so deep into my soul. If only things were different and not this way, then I knew that sometimes lines need to be crossed. “Listen can I be alone for a minute?” I said sweetly to Taylor and she nodded walki- I mean strutting away in her new high heels. Looking at Ian I slowly started walking over there, he met me halfway, I almost wanted to scream with joy.
“Hey.” Ian said with his hands in his pockets, looking shyly away for merely a second.
“Hola.” I said cutely twirling my hair for absolutely no reason at all.
“Listen…I know my sister doesn’t want us to um, hang out. But how about I take you to that really nice new restaurant, Heaven in Paris. What do yah say?” He said using that flirty smile that made me melt.
“I say I’d love too! How about Friday at 7:00? Here’s my number…” I said excitingly writing it down on his hand.
“That sounds great, see you then.” Ian replied winking and walking away, but when I heard that familiar voice behind me I froze.
"So I tell you he’s off limits and you totally go for him? Wow your such a bitch!” Chloe yelled making the whole quad look at her, she mouthed whore and walked off. Leaving me completely stunned and just standing there, this was karma, pure, cold karma. Ian asked me out and Chloe totally flipped, of course, nothing can ever go smooth for me. Devon didn’t even matter any more, I got what I wanted, its all about me. But now I’m not sure I want it that way, I don’t want it that way at all. But I just realized something, something very unsettling. This is the life of me, Bloom Vega, and I guess I just have to deal with it.
Chapter 6:Harmless at first sight…deadly at second glance
Chloe was acting extremely weird, it was like she was completely not herself, like a robot or something. It was just plain creepy, she would stare at me and it felt like she was burning a hole in my back. Ian said that at home she screamed in her room for no reason, its like she is going insane. Taylor and Tasha ditched her and only hang out with me now, but I always feel like Chloe is watching my every move. That feeling made me nearly want to scream and run to Ian, he felt like my only safe place. The only place Chloe couldn’t touch me was in his arms, that’s when I got the text, the text that changed everything. Slowly I gulped and read it, knowing this was bad. Hey Bloom! Look who’s all cheery about her little boyfriend! Well you better watch you back…I’m always watching you Bloom Vega…-Chloe. I knew things were about to take a turn for the worse and I needed Ian to stand by me every moment of it.
“Bloom, hey what’s wrong?” Taylor said coming up, noticing the text and gasping, but I was to afraid to breath, to afraid of her. “Oh my god…We won’t let that freak touch you, Tasha and I, I promise.” But her words didn’t help, didn’t comfort me at all, not even one bit. There she was, staring at me, this had gone to far, I had to take a stand, make this fear go away. I ran over to her and grabbed her shirt, throwing my fist at her face and feeling my adrenaline race as it hit her jaw. “Don’t ever threaten me ok!” I hissed in her ear, and then she bit me! Right on my arm! “Freak!” I yelled at her shaking my now bleeding arm.
“I warned you, now you should really watch your back…” Chloe said laughing in an almost insane way while she walked down the hall holding her jaw. I just mouthed insane freak after her but Taylor grabbed my good arm and took me to the nurse. Luckily the bleeding stopped after a little bit, but it left this weird mark, almost like permanent drops of blood. The nurse said it was nothing but a scar and should go away, but I wasn’t convinced. As we walked out with my bandaged arm Ian walked up.
“Hey I saw what happened, and Tasha told me about the text, Taylor texted her it. My sister so had that coming but I mean biting you? That was way out of line, I’m really sorry, are we still on for tonight?” He asked sweetly, I nodded and hugged him, taking in his warmth and safety he offered me. Waving goodbye he headed off, I was so excited about tonight but something told me it would be a very interesting evening.
Chapter 7:First dates are killer, literally
Taking a deep breath I looked at the girl I saw in the mirror, I didn’t even look like myself. My auburn hair with blonde highlights was curled but not put half up to hide my obviously nice bangs, that I hated for some reason. I was wearing a short, silk dress that just shied short of my knees, it was a light purple with a black ribbon under the chest part, and it was strapless. Tasha took one look at me and couldn’t help but smile, I had black eyeliner on and purple sparkly eye shadow, and of course lip gloss that was quite shiny on my lips. Shaking my head I covered my face with my hands, I didn’t even try to stop myself from giggling.
“Well I guess I have found the most beautiful girl ever.” Ian said suddenly appearing at the front door we had left unlocked for him, I was still standing in the hallway. Then he came over and put his arm around me, but I ignored him and gave Tasha a hug waving goodbye to her. Then we walked out to his car and I slid into the passenger’s seat. The ride over to the restaurant was a blur, I had the most sickening feeling in my stomach that Tasha shouldn’t be alone in my house, a buzzing nearly made me leap out of my seat. Realizing it was my phone I knew this was a very bad thing, slowly bringing my gaze to the screen I read the horrific text. Hey bff! You know Tasha really was such a nice girl…too bad you just left her like that. Kisses xoxo-Chloe.
That text made me break into tears, I knew what Chloe was capable of and I just left Tasha all alone like that!
“Oh no…” Ian said reading the text, he spun the car around making the wheels screech. But I just sat there, unable to think that was probably the last time I would ever see Tasha. My world just felt like it was crumbling down, all because of me… As we parked in the driveway of my house I got the most bone chilling feeling. I had to be prepared for what we might find, but it was just to much. Ian hugged me and we held hands tightly as we walked in, the house was dead silent. Pieces of paper on the walls had arrows pointing towards the kitchen, we slowly and cautiously followed. Knowing Chloe was long gone by now, but she had left her prey for us to find.
“Oh my god!” I said holding my hand over my mouth I screamed into my hand, bursting into tears. There sitting like she was texting sat the dead body of Tasha, her once warm eyes cold, dead, icy cold. Turning I clutched onto Ian and buried my head into his t-shirt, he dialed 911 and explained everything. But everything was so blurry, I couldn’t take it all in. I just kept screaming in agony and crying, when the cops and ambulance got there I just shut everyone out and stayed the night at Taylor’s…
Chapter 8:Funerals are a drag
Every breath was a struggle, everyday things felt like trying to climb Mt. Everest. I just stared at my wall, not excepting Tasha was…dead. It was like she was there one minute and gone the next, like she disappeared off this world never to be seen again. Taylor and me spent the night together every night, we stayed together every moment, so she couldn’t take another bff from me. Chloe still came to school, but the cops didn’t believe she did it, there was no evidence she was ever at my house. But it had to be her! Didn’t it? Right now I felt like the insane one, but Taylor and Ian told me that the cops will find something to say Chloe killed Tasha. Did I believe that? Nope, not one bit. Chloe was to smart for me, for the cops, she had sent those texts from an unknown number. Even though she signed it, the cops said that someone was probably framing her, which made me really mad.
It didn’t matter how much I tried to deny it, Chloe was in my head, and she was trying to make me go insane. The truth is, she’s winning, undeniably winning…
Right after lunch I decided to go to school, I came home for lunch today. When I got there during the lunch break Devon waited. Oh god I thought I made this problem go away, obviously not. He smiled stopping me, I simply rolled my eyes trying to get past. But he was to strong, so I stood where I was waiting for him to speak.
“You know, its funny how you psyched me the other day, I know your not dating Josh or me. So who?” Devon asked tilting his head with his own little flirty smile, but his made me sick.
“Ian, you know Chloe’s brother?” A smirk appeared on my face as his expression changed to jealousy, I could feel the negative energy flowing from him. It was almost overbearing, but I just walked over to Ian and pulled on his t-shirt so our lips met. It felt like static sparked between us, he looked surprised but happy. Thinking of him as Chloe’s brother made me shiver, how could someone so sweet be related to her? That made me remember Tasha’s funeral was today, at 3:30-6:30. I waved goodbye to Ian and made it through the rest of my classes, getting home with Taylor as fast as possible. We changed into black dresses, they were shortish with a little puffiness at the bottom. Leaving out the door I took a deep breath and stepped into Taylor’s Mercedes, blue to be exact.
The funeral was so beautiful, curtains draped across the ceiling, elegant flowers everywhere. Tasha would have loved this…Then I looked back at the entrance as we took our seats and my eyes couldn’t believe what they saw. It made me breathless, wanting to push her out, calling her a murderer. There at the entrance stood Chloe, in a silk pink dress with a few jewels. How dare she wear such a happy color on this day! She took her seat and the funeral went by quickly, when Chloe got up to say one last goodbye to Tasha I saw a smirk on her face. As she left I stared in disbelief, going up to the coffin I laid my delicate fingers on Tasha’s face one last time. Taking that final step of letting go I walked away, struggling not to cry.
Chapter 9:Sorrow and insanity race, but who will win?
Sorrow fills my heart to the brim, overflowing my emotions, depression was one step away. But insanity overwhelms me, I see Tasha walking towards me, her hand out, she is screaming for my help. I want to help her but I can’t reach her, and then she fades away like she was never there… They all think I’m insane and I need help, I am afraid if they are right or not, but Ian tells me I’m beautiful and I’m just in shock. We went to the beach yesterday, best.day.ever.
There we sat, right where the waves washed up, just at the brim. Our toes feeling the chill of the water, then it happened. Our eyes met, his sea green, mine a crystal blue, it was so amazing. He leaned in, I hesitated but his gaze reassured me, his lips found mine. I wanted that moment to last the rest of eternity…
Shaking my head of that truly unforgettable memory I raced out the door, my hair crimped today and my usual makeup. I wore a pair of shorts and a t-shirt with a sketchy drawing on it, it was one of my favorites lately. Taylor followed me out, I live with her now, my parents moved away and I wanted to stay here. She wore shorter shorts and a tank top, her brunette hair curled. When we walked into the school I felt stares burning into my back. You know that feeling when someone is talking about you? Well times that by 1800 and that’s how bad I felt. Chloe smiled and waved at me, but I wasn’t giving her the satisfaction of watching me squirm so I kept walking.
“Hey crazy! Taken your medication yet?” Boys shouted as I passed, one of them was Josh, and that stung that he would do that. Ian walked up and put his arm around me, we walked down the hall hearing all the insults towards me. Who could blame them? I am insane after all…I mean come on with no evidence Chloe didn’t kill Tasha, I’m just insane and I blamed her.
“Bloom don’t listen to them, they are just jerks.” Taylor said patting me on the back to comfort me. I pretended to act like that helped, it didn’t but I had to stop acting so depressed. I forced a smile as we walked into French, that seemed to cheer Taylor up and even Ian too. If I’m going insane I’m doing a pretty good job at pulling it off. In Math, people laughed and pointed at me, snickering about how I’m just such a complete psycho. That made me so mad, clenching my fists I lost my temper, I looked at one of the girls laughing about me and grabbed her shirt. Looking her straight in the eyes I imagined her choking, straining for every breath of air. Suddenly she grabbed her throat and started coughing, I let go as she lay on the floor gasping for breath, smiling I continued class. But I got tired of the questions so I left the classroom without a word.
I just went home and stared at my ceiling until I fell asleep, waiting for morning to come…
Chapter 10:So yesterday…
Not today, she was not beating me, Chloe was not taking this away from me. Smirking as I approached her door, I knocked, the door opened to reveal Chloe looking at me annoyed.
“Look I don’t have time for you, go run off and take some more of your meds k?” She said, but I stopped the door with my hand, looking at her I thought of her in total agony, complete pain. Then she fell to the floor writhing in pain, I laughed insanely, making her pain worse she groaned and screamed. Ian came to the door and looked down at his sister, he bent down and tried to help. Looking at me he shook his head, “Were over.” Ian said taking his sister inside, leaving me just standing there. I didn’t even know what just happened, I blacked out and now I’m here. Exactly what did happen?
Taylor filled me in on what Ian said, she tried explaining I had no idea what happened but he wouldn’t listen. I really am insane…truly insane. A flashback came into my head, I was little, maybe five or six. A boy about twelve or thirteen came up to me and hit me, knocking me down. My eyes went black all of a sudden as he backed up, suddenly he fell screaming over and over…then silence, complete cold, silence. His skin was white and cold, his eyes sightless. I looked like I had saw a ghost as my eyes turned back to normal, my parents came in and I started crying…
That’s all I remember, I never remember that happening though. Which was weird, considering I remember the rest of my childhood. I didn’t want to hurt anyone, I ran to someone’s motorcycle in the parking lot. It had it’s keys in the side, I turned them in the ignition, it sprung to life. I hopped on, not bothering with a helmet, speeding away I headed down a dirt road, going as fast as possible. I saw that tree, I didn’t move, taking that last breath I heard the collision, felt it, then sweet, sweet blackness…
I saw Tasha! At least I think I did, I mean there was this light, but I didn’t feel the least bit attracted to it. I wandered around, then I saw that heart shaped face, that blonde hair, those blue eyes. She stared at me then ran away leaving a piece of paper behind, I tried to follow her but the paper seemed important. Picking it up I read it out loud to myself. “C is for Chloe, I is for insanity, P is for piece it together…” Ok I really didn’t get what Tasha was trying to tell me but I think Chloe has something to do with my insanity.
“How though? Tasha please answer me…” Another piece of paper floated by, I read it but this time to myself. Childhood memories erased…a mocking bird by the name of Chloe is there to make you repeat them… This still confused me, but I wondered if I would ever wake up from this weird dream, or was it a nightmare? Hard to tell right now, Tasha made me feel like Chloe was somehow connected to my childhood, how was that even possible though?
Chapter 11:Hospitals and insane people don’t mix
Lights, very bright lights clouded my vision, I heard the excitement of Taylor. She squealed at seeing me blink my eyes in confusion. I was dead just a few moments before though! Wasn’t I? Right now all I felt was the icy touch of Taylor, why were her hands so cold? It felt like she was so sad that it overwhelmed her sense of touch, but how could I tell that from one little touch? “Taylor w-wh-why are your h-hands s-s-so cold?” I asked so confused, she just stared at me with a weird look. Then the doctor walked up, she was tall, had brown hair, and dark brown eyes. Touching my wrist she felt for a pulse, her touch felt more like a fiery anger and sadness, then I saw these images. One was of a man who was walking out of this house, he was furious. Then I saw the doctor, she cried for him to come back but he didn’t.
“You had a NDE, or Near Death Experience, you may have some short side effects from this. Also I detected something when I took a scan of your brain…” Shooing everyone else out she came back to me, looking worried. “You have a severe case of personality disorder, I’m sorry, this causes sudden swings in emotions, and can have supernatural effects. I hear you put two girls in a lot of pain, but yet you didn’t touch them. You did it mentally, I will give you medication to help this and keep it under control but it will always be there.” She said, leaving me just staring at the wall, I wanted to die, so why hadn’t I? It’s a question I ask myself a lot lately, I wish this accident had killed me. Unfortunately though I only had a bunch of bruises and scratches, and a broken wrist.
“Hey crazy, looks like suicide was one way out huh?” Chloe said laughing while she walked in. I wanted to scream and launch myself at her, just keep hitting her, but I could do better. If I wanted too, I could kill her right here, believe me I wanted too. That wouldn’t solve anything though, she sat on the end of my hospital bed, I just stared at her. “Ok well I have a little story for you, I saw a picture of you when you were little and lets say it brought back some memories….Anyways I had another older brother once, his name was Cody, he was about 12 in this little story. So he was friends with the neighborhood girl who was about 5, but there was something mentally wrong with him. He liked the girl, in fact he said he loved her, when he told her she said she didn’t love him back. That made him mad so he hit her really hard, then he was found dead only moments later. Can you fill in the blanks Bloom? Oh I forgot the little girl happened to look just like you.” Chloe almost hissed the last part, then she got up and left, thank god.
Then the flashback came back, the one where my eyes turned black, the boy screaming in pain, the silence. It made me shutter, remembering that Tasha had warned me about Chloe, saying she was part of my past. I always knew there was something wrong with me, I mean come on who else has memory lapses? Can hurt people with her mind, and can feel emotions by touch? No one, that’s right, I have lost everything, and I mean everything. Ian hates me, if he finds out I murdered his brother… I can’t even imagine his reaction. Pain, anger, sadness, fury, all bad combinations but yet with a little love they all disappear.
“Hey, Bloom…why would you try to kill yourself?” Taylor said coming in, just then I thought of something. If I could kill others…can I kill myself? In my head I pictured myself just dieing, heart stopping, breathing cut off. It happened, no strings attached this time, the only thing left in my short life was my sweet, sweet insanity...
THE END
